October 28, 2021•223 words
According to my Daylio app, I've now had five consecutive good days - apparently the first time this has happened in the (at the time of writing) 68 days of using the app.
Even though I've had a very good streak going, last week I came to the conclusion - I need help. There's only so much a person can do before they lose focus on themselves, and I hit that limit. There's always going to be those times where everything feels overwhelming, but it's possible to power through all of it.
I reached out to my primary care provider yesterday and had a talk with her about everything that was going on, and for the first time in my life I'm now on antidepressants. I know these aren't the end-all-be-all happy pills, but the goal is to prevent a free fall from a cliff and make it more like a walk down a slightly steep path.
I'm hopeful. For the first time in quite some time, I'm happy with myself. I reached out for help because I knew I needed it, and my wife, my best friend, and my friends at work all helped me through. It's good to have a support group that understands that mental health is definitely an item to focus on.
Thank you friends. Happy Thanksgiving to everyone!